Ugh, it's been one of those days. You know, one of those days you just want to curl up under a rock and die...it's been a hard couple of weeks for me.
I care too much. I care too much what people think, I care about others, I care how people feel, I care if I help people, I care if I hurt people, I care if I make people smile, I care if I make people cry, I care when other people hurt, and I care if I can help...It's not really a flaw, but it's hard on a person.
In the last few weeks, I haven't taken any time for me. I've done nothing but care for others, making sure others are okay, helping them out in this sad time, comforting them, staying strong, abandoning anything for me; and replacing it with caring for them.
It's difficult to be strong; to stay composed so others don't have to. To be the voice of reason amidst the chaos; to offer words of comfort. To not cry; so that others can. To be the shoulder to cry on; without crying yourself.
But it has been taking a toll; I can tell I'm not myself. I'm not eating as much, I'm breaking out, I'm losing hair, I'm biting my nails, and I don't feel well. Oh well, it will pass I'm sure. It just seems like I'm surrounded by a crushing fog right now...
Anyway, I'm sure this was too heavy of a post for your liking, so I'll move onto a different topic: character pages are up! I designed three out of four. These are pages created for the characters of Nightmare Phase [The REAL ones - the REAL Ivy Masquerade, REAL ImoNatsu, REAL Teira Lovely, REAL RinPatrova...]. I created them but THEY will be posting on them, so that you can get to know them better, and hear what they have to say.
You can find the links on the left hand side of the page.
