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Monday, June 29, 2009♥.

INTRODUCING MY NEW VIDEO PAGE

x.Let it Pour.x

GO CHECK OUT MY FIRST VID!

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I've learned alot about myself over the last couple of days.
I've made some stupid, avoidable, mistakes.
I realized that I need to change.
I need to turn my life around.
This is my challenge to myself,
and to all of you as well...

This world is full of hurting people,
we are all hurting people.
It's time to stop the cycle of hurt,
it's time to stop hurting.
There's some things we can't change,
but there's some things we can.
Show love to all people,
whether you think they deserve it or not.
Don't judge,
unless you want to be judged.
Be a shoulder to cry on,
as well as an open heart.
Tell people how much you love them,
they may need to hear it more than you know.
Show people they're worth it,
show people you're worth it.
You can save a life,
even your own.
With God's help,
we can all make it through.

The rain is falling,
turn your face to the sky and let it pour.

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Friday, June 26, 2009♥.

So yeah, I'm going to cut straight to the chase. I was at a party, a lawn chair attacked me, and now I have a broken toe.
The little toe I might add.

That being said...

Having a broken toe, not so much fun. Doing martial arts with a broken toe; surprisingly even LESS fun. My foots all blue and white and purple...I should upload a picture or something...

Annnnyyywayyyy, So I'm tan, and it's like 105 degrees outsite - not even kidding - and I work outdoors (thank heavens for my office).

BUT I need my job, so...

I love the background song. It's amazing. I'm really happy right now. I just spent the last few days with Teira, and some other friends...

and there were adventures.

Such as ice cream men attacks, broken toes, golf cart shennanigans, pool fun, exploding little mermaid dolls, awkwardness, and RIPPED little kids...don't ask.

Soooooo...anyway, my toe hurts. And I are seepy seepy. SOOOOOOO,

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND FROM SHADOW LOVELY!

ps: that's me.

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Monday, June 22, 2009♥.

Oooooookay, so I'm not gonna lie. I don't know why I'm posting right now, but I am, therefore; I am looking for things to talk about.
In light of recent events, the audio blog and voice comment box are no longer in existance, I apologize...but quite possibly, this might just open up the door something bigger and better - A podcast. Maybe even a Nightmare Phase - Lullaby Girls Video Podcast. Soooo anyway...

So yeah, It's summer. And it's hot. Very hot. That's why I don't like summer. I don't like the hot. I LOOOOOVEEEE the water...but I don't like the hot. Ugh. I'm fairly certain you don't really care how I feel however...

So my visit from Ivy didn't happen. Ugh. Fail. Epic Fail.
Oh well. -___- No shennanigans for me.

Shennanigans = Prankishness. You think I'm kidding? Look it up.

Annnnyyyyway, everyone knows that if your cow doesn't have udders, it's not a ranch...
don't ask.

So i'm trying to lose some summer weight...that doesn't make any sense, but anyway...I'm trying to drop like 20-30 lbs. I'm not "fat" I just want to drop some weight. So, I'll let you know how that goes...lol, again - not like you care or anything...

I'm rambling, but that's okay. If you're still reading this obviously you're bored enough to care.

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Friday, June 19, 2009♥.

As you might have noticed, Lovely/Lonely is gone. So is the voice comment box.
I'd rather not talk about it.

Anyway, the audio blog no longer exists, but I'm researching podcast...Nightmare Phase podcast in the near future perhaps? Maybe when I get a laptop...

So yeah I just worked a double shift. I'm tired. I'm going to bed.

Night All.

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Thursday, June 18, 2009♥.

It's official. I'm going to suck it up and not let this depression get to me.
No one ever promised this life would be good, or easy, so you have to learn to roll with the punches and deal with the hand God gives ya.

"When Life Gives You Lemons, Make apple juice and then watch people wonder how you did it."

So, in light of this, I'd like to take this chance to explain a little bit about why I chose these four amazing girls to be in Nightmare Phase, and why I'm so lucky to have them in my life:

Ivy - My Light. She's my best friend, and has been with me through the hardest of all the times. Even though she doesn't seem to take anything seriously, there's no one else in the world who can listen to my problems, then instantly make me laugh about them simply by being themselves. She knows exactly what to say and when to say it, and snaps me back to reality...erm, her reality. Spending minutes on the phone with her can undo weeks of misery. I don't know what I'd do without her.

Imo - My Warm Blanket. She's my security, the one I can vent to for hours at a time. Even though I don't always see it, she's always looking out for me and always is there to listen to my problems and offer advice. She always has a shoulder to cry on and an open heart. And she cares about others' well being. She shares my empathy for others, and I share her caring heart.

Teira - My Mirror. She's my sister, not by blood, but by heart. And like the relationships sisters have, as opposed to friends, we fight and we argue, but we always end up loving eachother in the end. We have so much in common it's scary; from our eating habits, to our personality quirks. She always has a compliment or a good word, and her laugh lightens up the room. I've never gotten so annoyed by someone, but loved them so much for it at the same time.

Rin - My Rock. She's my childhood friend, who was separated from me when I moved away at a very young age. We didn't keep in touch and had no idea of eachother's existence until a short time ago. But within a few weeks, a strong bond was instantly formed. Some people just fit together, and that's us. We have TONS in common. More than almost anyone else I've ever met. Even things like our childhood home, to being homeschooled, to being adopted, to personality traits and bad habits...We balance eachother because we handle situations so similarly, and I love having her in my life.

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Well, just thought I'd share. I'd like to remind you, make sure you tell all the special people in your life you love them. Sometimes, they need to hear it more than you could ever imagine.

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009♥.

Hey!! Sorry this is so late! Our computer has been having a major issue and has finally just died.
Which means I'm using a dial-up computer. Which is fail.

So, I'm currently recording a audio blog post with Ivy Masquerade as her guest on her new blog "Welcome to the Masquerade". Go check out her blog:

www.ivymasquerade.blogspot.com

So yeah, I've been dealing with depression lately. -___-
But it's going to be okay, because I'm organizing a Nightmare Phase photo shoot.

._. so yeah. I'll post more later. I'm bored now.

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Tuesday, June 9, 2009♥.

Since the background music was overpowering the video...the video is now the background music...you can watch the video by clicking on the link I posted.

Slap Chop ftw.

ENJOY!

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Monday, June 8, 2009♥.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWRyj5cHIQA&feature=player_embedded

I officially laughed WAY TOO HARD at this.

If this is what the actual commercial looked like, I would have bought four...take note ShamWow.

lol so I'm having waayy too much fun listening to this...

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009♥.

Ugh, it's been one of those days. You know, one of those days you just want to curl up under a rock and die...it's been a hard couple of weeks for me.

I care too much. I care too much what people think, I care about others, I care how people feel, I care if I help people, I care if I hurt people, I care if I make people smile, I care if I make people cry, I care when other people hurt, and I care if I can help...It's not really a flaw, but it's hard on a person.

In the last few weeks, I haven't taken any time for me. I've done nothing but care for others, making sure others are okay, helping them out in this sad time, comforting them, staying strong, abandoning anything for me; and replacing it with caring for them.

It's difficult to be strong; to stay composed so others don't have to. To be the voice of reason amidst the chaos; to offer words of comfort. To not cry; so that others can. To be the shoulder to cry on; without crying yourself.

But it has been taking a toll; I can tell I'm not myself. I'm not eating as much, I'm breaking out, I'm losing hair, I'm biting my nails, and I don't feel well. Oh well, it will pass I'm sure. It just seems like I'm surrounded by a crushing fog right now...

Anyway, I'm sure this was too heavy of a post for your liking, so I'll move onto a different topic: character pages are up! I designed three out of four. These are pages created for the characters of Nightmare Phase [The REAL ones - the REAL Ivy Masquerade, REAL Imo Natsu, REAL Teira Lovely, REAL Rin Patrova...]. I created them but THEY will be posting on them, so that you can get to know them better, and hear what they have to say.

You can find the links on the left hand side of the page.

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Tuesday, June 2, 2009♥.

Alas, another day is upon us...

I've been quite exhausted over the last few weeks, so slowly the posts have been updated.
At the present time, I am organzing the other character pages for Nightmare Phase to be up and running shortly. Since I've had to design all but one of them, it's taken more time than first anticipated.

Also, I'm looking for a place to purchase a cheap but decent MacBook. For the purpose of getting Nightmare Phase uploaded and edited more quickly...

Ugh, there is nothing quiet as pleasant as being stalked and hit on at work by creepy guys. I'm a pool attendant (life guard who cannot save your life) at the local resort community pool...so it's pretty much assumed that's going to occur at least once or twice. Fun fun. Where's my tazer?

lol jk

DON'T TAZE ME BRO. O_O

Ivy will understand that reference...

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